The laughing started

I walked in the club room and I see him across the room, he starts giggling like a girl. 

We make eye contact again and he starts laughing even harder. 

I put my bag down near him and we make eye contact again, 

he started laughing even harder and fell on the floor laughing. 

Everyone was quiet and stared at him wondering what happen. 

Few minutes later he stood up trying to grab the chair but he fell back down laughing we he seen me. 

Finally, he got his senses back together and I didn't make eye contact with him.

I asked him to pass me my pencil, I stretched my arm trying to reach for the pencil and he just flicked it like it had some germs.

This is when I knew he knows something stupid I did.

Sending a love note?

I used to like Guy A but now I like Guy B. Guy A and Guy B are close friends.
I always laugh with him (Guy B), he makes my day, he's so kind, tall and smart. Just my type. I just thought of something sweet, making a love note that doesn't really say "I like you", or "I love you". I wrote pick up lines instead. I gave it to a friend who he completely doesn't know to give it to him from anonymous. I wanted him to feel confused but special.
I seen him about a few hours later laughing with his friends. I couldn't tell if he got the card or not so I became very impatient. I wanted to give him a little hint by placing post it notes on the corners of the room where he would pass by and notice.
He texted me right after his study hour asking if I know who his mystery girl is. He gave me a girls name...his bestfriend. Ouch* I said no its me, sorry to disappoint does it bother you? He said no.

Guy A started laughing every time I was close to Guy B....winking at Guy B never looking at me. Guy B seemed very uncomfortable when the club started to create weird comments. I was scared of my past with Guy A that I needed to let Guy B go too. Instead of a simple no I said I still liked Guy A and Guy A heard from behind and just laughed.

Ha!  still likes me

Decided to give up

Well he gave distance. People in the club were quiet between us. We were separated from each other which made it easier for me to work. I couldn't bring myself to look at him and my heart to beat again. I couldn't get my hopes up for something I know will never happen. Everything he did I thought I had a chance. I guess they were "just friends" signals. He still passes by me when I am alone. Sometimes I catch him looking at my direction. I sometimes play cool or wave at him when I catch him staring on the second floor. My friends would also notice him looking my way when I laugh and smile. But still I couldn't think any highly of it because were just friends. I decided I need to move on and give up on that stupid love because it wasn't going anywhere. He couldn't look me in the eyes when we talk, he didn't like texting me, it took him a long time. I guess he just got over my funny business of texting everyday. Sigh* maybe next time....

"I don't like you, leave me alone"

Next day, I waved at him he waves back looking down avoiding my eyes. I attempt to high five him and he gives me a fist bump. More and more frequently he tries to avoid me. I finally realized the picture. I felt I knew it got to him, thinking, "aww he probably figured I liked him". Walking in the club he still avoids my eyes. I try to act positive and sneak a peek on him but he never looked at me. Feeling sad and avoided I decided I should just give up trying to get attention. 

I asked a friend what happened because the team seemed out of placed. They showed me a single part of the group chat and had him saying "I do not like her" texted on the chat. People claiming we were an item but he strongly denied it. My heart dropped, at the spot I tried my best not to cry in front of my friends but all I did was smile and say, "haha yah its true we were never an item and we will never be one", I walked away.

The change started

Its been two months since we started talking through text. I've been starting off the text with a "hey" or a "hi" this past two weeks. Seems like he's been busy with work. We end our conversations too early and it seems like he's drifting away. On school hours during passing every time I spot him I try to say hi and ask for an high five. He looks at me but looked uneasy. He gave me a high five anyways. The next day I passed by him and ask for a high five trying to block his way he never looked into my eyes. He hesitantly tried to give me a high five but ended up curling his hand into a fist and gave me a fist bump instead. He still didn't look me in the eyes.

Its been a week since I talked to him and he's talked to me. But once I came home he asked me for my number but sadly my phone broke and I couldn't text him if I didn't have any Wi-Fi. But we talked normally on that day. I found his interest in pop music and some K-pop. He planned to let me listen to his playlist on his phone next time we meet at the club and id let him listen to mine. We also made a bet if I could scare him under a week I get to do his hair. If I don't scare him under a week then he would give me some kind of punishment.

Few days later, out of no where a upperclassmen texted me. He told me a lot of things about what I missed the pass few days. Most importantly he told me what he seen and heard. He seen a picture of me and him holding hands. It was during the time he was teaching me how to draw a letter in a cool font. It seemed like someone seen us and took a picture and posted it on a website. I freaked out in the inside because a bad feeling rushed through my gut.

We started getting close

Texting almost everyday. Saying "hi" everyday. Hand hugs everyday. High fives everyday. Every time we pass by each other we would blush and say "hi". Every time I see him my day gets brighter and I can't help but talk about him to my friends. How cute he gets when he tries to hide his flustered face. How much he hates being called cute or nerdy. How he jokes around with his short T Rex arms.

I had a hard time writing a fancy letter in a fancy font (I know pretty dumb). He helps me by drawing the letter a few times better and better. When I still couldn't get it he started writing steps. When I still couldn't get it he took my hand and traced the letter. When I thought I did a pretty good job he erased it again and grabbed my hand and traced the letter again on the paper. When we finished tracing he held my hand a bit longer every time. From just a little touch to 3 minutes hold.

When people started entering the room I had to find a seat but the only seat left was one behind a tall table at the back. Turns out he also had to find a seat. He looked at me and walked towards me. Knowing how small and skinny I am he sat next to me squeezing his butt to the chair. I moved at the edge of the chair so that he could have a bit more space. He put his hand around me from my back and placed his hands on the chairs arm rest where my arm was resting. He closed his eyes and put his head on my shoulder for just a second until everyone had to look back at us and started laughing and giggling.

Started Texting

I found his Facebook profile and I added him. Right away he accepted it and I said hi.

He sent me a hi back and thats when we started talking. I asked how his day was, he told me he was sad because he didn't get to see a certain someone today. I asked if it was his girlfriend and he told me it was a friend (I got my hopes up thinking it was me). We talked about ourselves like our siblings and pets. What color he likes and how he likes cats. He asked for my phone number but sadly I still don't have a phone because my parents still don't trust me as a teenager. But he gave me his just incase I wanted to hear his voice.

When he had to drop at 9pm I could hardly breath from covering my face with a pillow while slapping the ground with excitement. My heart couldn't stop racing, I couldn't wait for tomorrow.

He's talking to me >o<